All my life I did not feel like, I belonged in this world, , This world feels foriegn to me and the people who inhibit it , like strangers to me sometimes, My feelings never seem to match up to others, like how ever since I was young, I have always been for the underdog, no matter how bad the crime, I always feel somehow bad for the criminal, not that I think what they do is right, of course I don't but, I just feel bad for them that they did something bad and will now have to be punished for it, I know this is not acceptanle but it is how I feel, my phychitrist once told me if someone tried to kill you, you would ask for a paper and pen to write a sucide note so he wouldn't have to go to Jail.
I wonder at the reason behind my thinking often. I have never felt predjudice that I know of at least, I am far from perfect though and have many mistakes in my life, nothing serious though, and i am not a person who even thinks I am perfect, I just which I knew why I have so much empathy.
I recently lost my best friend to a sudden death and with out her here in the world, I feel lost and that is why I started to write this Blog, she was my sounding board, now I am left with no one I can talk with and just refelect over ideas.
I don't want this to be ordered I just want to randomly express my feelings on things from current issues to my personal struggles.
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