Anna Nicole Smith

I feel so saddened by anna Nicoles death , it is so sad, and now even though she is gone she remains in death a commodity, will her little baby even have a chance, we are such savages and we think we are a civilized nation, we are no better than the roman empire, when will we fall?

the unfairness of it all

I went on disabilty for severe back problems and arthritis, I also weighed 286 at the time on a 5 foot 3 inch frame, 4 years ago I underwent gastric bypass surgery , went down to 118 pounds and after a lenghy hospital stay due to complications from surgery, came home . three years later, I could not survive on the 610.00 ssi payment so I went to work, now I am bing removed from ssi and then I will lose all my medicare and medicaid will not be able to afford my prescriptions and will be back at square one, so now I have aweek to make up my mind whether to give up my job or lose my benifits, its so discouraging to try to help yourself and wind up in this situation I am almost 60 years old and had worked since I was 16 more than one job until I couldn't 10 years ago.

gardening

My Gaden is finally ready to be planted I love planting and everything that goes along with it, there is something so special about seeing the fruits of your labor.

Sunday Morning coming down

yesterday I was so energized running around like a energiezer bunny on steriods. redoing all my rooms, creating new pocket books and altered art , today I have a major headache and feel like crap , I know its my sinus as we are getting two snowstorms and that always cause me major headaches, but I wanted to be as active as yesterday, I love it whe I feel so motivated, but for now I will have to just lay here with my sinus headache eye pillow I made heated up on my head and wait for the sinus to coperate with my plans!!!!

Stinks

Found out yesterday Johnettes cancer is back that is so awful, sometimes life just sucks and I feel like I have to drag myself up to the plate to go on living when I know all the awful things that may or may not happen to me and my loved ones. aging gracefully is not in me I want to kick and scream all the way, that I don't want to go there!!!!

Men and Toilets

Why is it Men can not pee in the toilet? I have never met a man who could hit the hole yet, The only hole they seem to be able to hit is the vagina, Plus most men would never think of cleaning up the mess they make they leave it for someone else to clean, YUK!!!!!!!
I think Men should be made to go to the bathroom outside seeing they oviously can't respect a toilet!!!!
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November 12 2005
cold, cold , cold here in maine I am not use to it, time for the shoulders to start hunching, I hate that in the spring I open up like a flower, in the winter my shoulders hunch and I feel like a flower closing!
Love working at the norlands, love living here on this old farm it brings out all my creativity.
Miss terribly my friend Linda who died almost a year ago,
such a gaping hole where here love once was!
going to start on making art for christmas not sure what I want to do yet, good old inertia still working to set e back, must light a fire under my Muse I guess.