Well, another cold morning, can't wai for spring, I always feel so closed up when it is cpld, my body even feels closed.
I read a interesting story in New yorker last night about a man who gave away Millions of his fortune and then gave away his kidney and wanted to give away more body parts, course he couldn't but he wanted to.
I had just beeen thinking before I read that story that I have a socialist mentality, I have never thought that some people should own six houses when the rest of us do not even own anything, why do you need six houses anyways?????
I have always admired Tolstoy and others like him, even christ preached a socialist message, if I was rich I would never keep it I would give to others and not just charities, I would give to people I kknow to make there life better.
on another subject, I keep forgetting for a moment my friend has died and want to call her, I guess that is common when you lose someone suddenly.
I never thought that she wuld be gone for a good many years never mind gone from me in such a short time I had just given her her Birthday present and had her christmas gifts wrapped, her birthday was Dec. 6th and she died Dec. 13th.
Monday, January 31, 2005
Sunday, January 30, 2005
autonamy
I Like the idea of writing when I am unknown it frees me from all my inhibitions, I think this will help.
Glad I started this, I hope eventually I find my voice and can ad something interesting to read about.
Glad I started this, I hope eventually I find my voice and can ad something interesting to read about.
Where do I go from Here
All my life I did not feel like, I belonged in this world, , This world feels foriegn to me and the people who inhibit it , like strangers to me sometimes, My feelings never seem to match up to others, like how ever since I was young, I have always been for the underdog, no matter how bad the crime, I always feel somehow bad for the criminal, not that I think what they do is right, of course I don't but, I just feel bad for them that they did something bad and will now have to be punished for it, I know this is not acceptanle but it is how I feel, my phychitrist once told me if someone tried to kill you, you would ask for a paper and pen to write a sucide note so he wouldn't have to go to Jail.
I wonder at the reason behind my thinking often. I have never felt predjudice that I know of at least, I am far from perfect though and have many mistakes in my life, nothing serious though, and i am not a person who even thinks I am perfect, I just which I knew why I have so much empathy.
I recently lost my best friend to a sudden death and with out her here in the world, I feel lost and that is why I started to write this Blog, she was my sounding board, now I am left with no one I can talk with and just refelect over ideas.
I don't want this to be ordered I just want to randomly express my feelings on things from current issues to my personal struggles.
I wonder at the reason behind my thinking often. I have never felt predjudice that I know of at least, I am far from perfect though and have many mistakes in my life, nothing serious though, and i am not a person who even thinks I am perfect, I just which I knew why I have so much empathy.
I recently lost my best friend to a sudden death and with out her here in the world, I feel lost and that is why I started to write this Blog, she was my sounding board, now I am left with no one I can talk with and just refelect over ideas.
I don't want this to be ordered I just want to randomly express my feelings on things from current issues to my personal struggles.
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